Where Did “Epic” Go?

September 13, 2012 — 11 Comments

The summer portion of our Epic Adventure officially ended on Sept. 7 when we pull up to our new, temporary house in Abingdon, VA.  Steve started his 13-week travel physical therapy position on Monday.  I’m going to reserve final judgment on this current phase of our Epic Adventure for another week or so, but so far, I’m not even going to lie; it sucks!

I’m trying really hard to be all puppies and rainbows, but it’s not working.  We’ve long ago figured out that Steve isn’t wired to be a PT.  He doesn’t like an 8-5.  He doesn’t like needless paperwork and antiquated systems.  He loves being his own boss.  He loves creating new ideas and working on innovative projects.  He loves interacting with athletes and those who are actively pursuing their passions.  An 85-year old men on with his butt hanging out his hospital gown isn’t his preferred clientele.  (true story)

And then there’s me.  I’ve had a job since I was like 15 years old.  I’ve found that I don’t really know how to do the stay at home mom thing.  Maybe it’s because we are sharing one car, and, obviously, Steve needs it to travel to patients’ homes.  I feel trapped.  I’m refiguring my identity.

Elijah and I have taken walks to explore our new neighborhood.  In an hour we covered about half a mile.  I swear; he picked up what seemed like every rock, stick, and weed that looked like a flower.  So, I guess technically we “explored”.

I had visions of our neighbors being fellow adventure seekers planning their 6- month hike of the Appalachian Trail.  Yeah, they’re not.  They are two moderately friendly middle-aged men who are here temporarily to do some work on a nearly power plant.

I find myself looking at the clock… a lot.  I’m not sure why.  Steve gets home anywhere from 5-8 depending upon the caseload for the day.  He vents.  I listen.  We eat dinner.  He vents.  I vent.  We both listen.  We force a little bit of humor and optimism.  We cross another day off of the calendar we’ve printed for the fridge. We watch about an hour of something on Netflix. He gets ready for bed.  I prepare the nightly ritual of coercing Elijah to stay in his own bed.

So, I’ve given into four days of bellyaching, and now I’m ready to move on.  Here’s my quick list of positives, in no particular order:

Free rent and utilities
Lots of time with Elijah
My health and my family’s health
My continued commitment to P90X2 (I’m soooo sore, but that’s besides the point.)
A great, loving husband
Supporting friends and family
Continued growth and ideas for growing 90 Revolutions with the hopes of being profitable enough to live off of
Abingdon is unique and beautiful
13 weeks is temporary
Got plugged into a new church quickly
A paycheck

I’m sure there are many, many more positives.  I’m feeling better already.  Puppies and rainbows, anyone?

As I wrap up this post, I’m debating if it should remain as a personal entry since it’s so negative and everything.  However, life is a process.  Epic Journeys can’t always be epic.  I’m just being real and honest.

Micheal and Claudia of Rise 365 aren’t going to be pleased since this is, “I’m doing GREAT week.” Technically, the rules are that I’m supposed to respond with, “I’m doing great” when someone asks me how I’m doing. Since no one directly asked me, and I’m just offering up my opinion, it shouldn’t count against me.  Right, Michael and Claudia?

Jody

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  • http://rise365.com/ Michael Good

    Jody,
    Love the honest post! Trust me, Claudia and I have had our days (weeks) as well. For sure!

    Actually, the night before we started the current IDC experiment, our car broke down. Needed a new radiator. It ended up costing over $700 because we repaired a few other things that we were putting off.

    This week has been tough. We’re playing catchup from being gone on vacation and have a million things going on. Here, I am venting! Sorry.

    It’s all good, though. We’re busy because we have a business that’s making money and friends and family that we love.

    Again, great post!

    • jodyberkey

      Michael, we’ll all in this together. Sorry your week hasn’t gone as planned. I just keep making mental notes about all of the positives. The positives outnumber the negatives, for sure, but the negatives seems to loom larger. Something to work on, huh? Give Claudia and Jude a hug for me.

  • http://www.parxbyjont.com/ Jonathan Tollefson

    Love it Jody. Let it rip. Sometimes I feel like puppies and rainbows are just rats and floods. I hope your next adventure brings you light and happiness. Keep at it. Nothing is as easy as it should be. Life is good!! Jon T

    • jodyberkey

      Jon, “rats and floods”… Great metaphor! Less rats and floods for us today. What a difference a day makes. The feedback and support from those who are also traveling on their own unique journeys was very uplifting. It also doesn’t hurt that today is Friday and Steve and I have an adult work/date weekend planned. It’ll be nice to get away and get some perspective after our first week of back to reality.

      How’s married life going for you? I bet it’s puppies and rainbows everyday :)

      • http://www.parxbyjont.com/ Jonathan Tollefson

        Married life is good so far! I hear it only keeps getting better.. lol

        • http://90revolutions.com Jody

          I have to say that it does… for us anyway :)

  • http://alanamokma.wordpress.com/ Alana Mokma

    I am typically an optimistic person, but still believe it is healthy to vent and puke out all the junk. Jody, your honesty is refreshing! Josh and I can relate to the paragraph where you start out “I find myself looking at the clock… a lot.” Minus Elijah – this has been our life lately – not everyday, but more often than I’d care to admit. Here’s my rainbow: (haha) as you and Steve continue to press forward, you are learning more and more about yourselves – and as you continue to allow the things you enjoy in your life to happen, the more opportunities you will see to do just that – the things you love to do. Not everyone is “awake” enough to know that they are more motivated by creating new ideas or working on innovative projects or hearing and sharing stories. But as you learn those things about yourself, you will start to have those opportunities – you’ll both see them so you can go to them AND they will start coming to you. I’ve experienced this myself. But, I definitely don’t discount your frustration. I feel your pain, girlfriend! :)

    • jodyberkey

      Alana, thank you for your kind and wise words. I love what you said about being “awake” to things. Steve and I were talking this week about how it is difficult because we got a glimpse of the “promised land” so to speak. Sometimes ignorance is bliss :) Anyway, you can’t un-ring a bell, so onward with the Epic Journey… wherever it may lead :)

      • http://alanamokma.wordpress.com/ Alana Mokma

        ohmygosh, I know EXACTLY what you mean by getting a “glimpse of the promised land”! I’ve had a few of these and those glimpses make it impossible for me to go back to the life I lived just a year ago. I get frustrated and want to give up, but I just can’t. I know too much now. :) It’s definitely helpful to know there are others in the journey (you and Steve, Michael and Claudia and so many others).

  • http://rise365.com Claudia Good

    AHHHHH, what a well written post, Jody. I’m glad you shared!

    Congratulations Jody and Steve, you have just walked into your MIDDLE! :) Oh those lovely places where you can’t quite see where you are going and you can’t get back to where you were! You paddle and paddle and the days are long and laborious.

    Middles are HARD!! I have journals and journals full of the rants and raves of my middles
    and adjusting to staying at home was one of them ;)

    However, the futuristic and optimistic side of me says, what a lovely place to be!!! It means you are paddling ever forward and someday, this, too will be a great story! It also means you know where you don’t EVER want to be again. So, congratulations for this as well! Your level of clarity is more than most people will ever gain!

    So, here is my hug and proverbial pat on the back and huge cheer from the Good household all in one comment. “We love you guys, keep pushing on!!!” Who knows where this middle will lead you!

    • jodyberkey

      Ahhh, the middle. I recall reading about some of your “middle” experiences. I’ll have to go back through your archives and remind myself of your wise counsel. I hadn’t thought about it being the middle before, but it makes sense. Thank you, my friend. I will keep working to embrace the place that we are in and not rush through it. Each day has new opportunities. Wow, I really have some GREAT friends. I am blessed.